It's strange to me that within these nearing 2 months of permanently being home that I'm stressed out. I haven't done anything absolutely monumental within that time span either. Vegas and nightly outings are a blur [needless to say, absolutely raging] and I still can't find the "wow" factor in being home just yet.
The root of all my stress [I'm for damn sure] is that being home has caused me confined restraint alongside the material/emotional jenga that seems to continue to stack everywhere in this house. This conscious feeling of my environment creates an infinite yearning for my Utopian dream: independence from every tangible & intangible rope apprehending me. Apologies on the repetition of this theme in these posts, but in all honestly--- being back home has been more negative for me than positive. Truth. In companion with the bills and parental controls, being unemployed has also caused this negative energy within me. Prior to graduation, I had a contract job with a solar energy company located in Mountain View lined up for me but that was a flop. So, what now? The search continues and I've received a few e-mails on possible job opportunities thanks to my temp agency. I figured E-bay & Stanford Investment Co. (affiliated with the university) were likely contenders. I'm hoping this won't be a bust.
It's August--- that means, summer is nearing it's end & what do you know, I have nothing amazing to do. It's summer in the southern hem., wish my credit card would let me fly over there. All these wants & no action. I'm not getting any younger either so this must happen soon.
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